I sometimes get these quiet moments when I can reflect on my life and the world around me. Just this morning my little guy and I pulled out the stroller to go for a walk around the neighborhood. He quietly munched on his fig bar and pointed out birds. We only passed a car or two while making our usual one mile path. The sun was covered up by clouds and there was a brisk Oklahoma breeze. Honestly, it was nice. I enjoy those walks.
I started thinking about the state of our lives during this quiet time. We are supposed to be social distancing, washing our hands every 20-30 minutes, etc., etc. You know the drill! Every time I get on social media I see at least every other post about COVID-19 in some sort of matter. I see people saying they are not even slightly social distancing because they feel this is all a scam by the government. I see people who are living in complete and total isolation and have maybe only gone to Wal-Mart once (or none) in the last month. Some people are saying there is no way they will take a shot for the virus, whereas others are 100% pro-immunizations of any kind. It is always SOMETHING and it seems as if nobody really agrees on what is “right”.
For the most part though, I have stayed quiet about my thoughts. I have done my own reading on COVID-19. I have watched news media. I have read people’s opinions. But in my opinion, nobody REALLY knows. There is so much uncertainty.
Now, let me pause to say…
People ARE getting sick. People ARE dying. This virus IS real.
I have no doubt in that. What I am unsure of though is what are the right actions to be taking. Should I be cleaning with Clorox wipes when some studies show they are bad for us? Should I be 100% social isolating when some studies say it would be better to only isolate the elderly and those with underlying health conditions so others can gain an immunity to the virus? My questions could go on and on.
I’ll be honest. I was living in a certain amount of fear in the beginning. Once it hit our state I went into a bit of a freak out mode. That’s a terrible way to be thinking though. God tells us to not to live in fear. We should lay our worries and fears at His feet. 2 Timothy 1:7 says:
God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.
This verse spoke truth to me. With God, we don’t need to live in fear. He has given us the power to be strong because He is here with us.
It took a lot of prayer, but I’m no longer living in fear. Now, that is not to go without saying that I AM taking precautions with and for my family. In my opinion, trusting in the Lord does not mean we can pretend like nothing is going on in the world. I can get sick. I don’t have immunity just because I’m no longer living in fear. I just believe God will take care of me and my family. I believe regardless of the outcome of this virus with my family, He has a plan for us. Proverbs 9:12 says,
If you are wise, your wisdom will reward you; if you are a mocker, you alone will suffer.
Though God wants us to put our trust in Him and not live in fear, He also wants us to remain level headed and use common sense.
So while we are going through this pandemic, my family has made some changes. We wash our hands WAY more than usual and do our best to not touch our faces (though that can be hard with a 2-year-old). We are staying away from people when we can. My husband’s job is considered “essential”, so he has to go into work frequently, but he has been able to work from home some. Instead of running into Wal-Mart every few days just to grab a couple items, we have only gone to the store a couple times, and even vouched to drive an hour away to do a pick-up order at Sam’s and Wal-Mart since we don’t have the pick-up service locally. We are staying away from our family and friends, regardless of if they are “being careful” or “aren’t showing signs”. We love them all dearly, but, I’d rather keep my child from licking or loving on as many people as possible right now. *insert eye roll*
I’m not forcing my family to stay inside though. For my family, that just wouldn’t work. We are social-distancing by going out and exploring, playing in the backyard, and fishing, all while staying away from others. The sun and fresh air is good for the soul!
I’m looking at the positive and trying to take in all these moments with my family that we usually wouldn’t get because we are truly a family on the go. Usually, we are always booked for the weekends whether with family or friends. We always have plans. Now, we get to just be. We get to try out new experiences and new places. I have loved getting to watch my son see a fish being caught for the first time. We explored another person’s land last weekend where Jonathan got to see cows, fish, and climb all over a canyon. We are planning on camping soon. These are all memories I will never forget.
You are all in my prayers. I pray we all make it out of this pandemic stronger than we were before. I pray we learn and take something positive away from this experience. Mostly, I pray for health and well-being.
So until next time,